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You’re Probably Wondering About My Nose

I was a moderately attractive middle-aged librarian before I became a moderately attractive middle-aged librarian with a witch nose

Photograph by Twenty20

When your skin is being treated for sun damage, which results in a large and eye-grabbing, ugly blotch of bright red, unpleasant-looking skin right in the middle of your nose, you quickly learn that there are two kinds of people in this world.

There are the folks who, seeing you, blurt out, “What happened to your nose?" And there are those who, seeing you, want to blurt, “What happened to your nose?” but are far too polite. Or repressed. Or just rendered speechless by the awful sight.

I am currently applying medicinal glop to my nose twice a day. “While it’s working,” my dermatologist said when she prescribed the stuff, “it’s going to look pretty bad.”

She got that right. First, my nose turned bright red. Then even redder. Then fire engine, warning-flare, catastrophic red. As it reddened, my poor old nose also developed a fabulous variety of odd little bumps, creases and discolorations.

“The treated area may become unsightly,” stated the package insert that came with the glop. Now there’s an understatement. It should have read: “The treated area will become hideous.”

Before this little adventure began, I was a moderately attractive middle-aged librarian. Now I am a moderately attractive middle-aged librarian with a witch nose.

To work at a library’s circulation desk is to work with the public. Thus, hundreds of people get to view my nose and comment (or refrain from commenting) each day. The library patrons who also happen to be my friends were, of course, on it immediately: What the hell happened to you? That has to hurt! Somebody land a punch instead of paying a fine?

And, although obvious, my favorite: “Hey Rudolph!“

Naturally, I expect the folks who are near and dear to me to be curious and concerned. (And to clown around. I’m a humor writer, so it’s no surprise that my pals are a bunch of smartasses.)

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But there are also total strangers — the unrepentantly nosy, the unrepressed and a variety of other folks who just don’t observe boundaries — who’ll take one look and exclaim, “So what’s the story with your nose?”

This is, admittedly, pretty rare. Most people who don’t know me, or don’t know me that well, are too polite to comment. They take one look, their eyes widen … and then spend the rest of our encounter looking anywhere but at my nose.

They’re probably dying to know why my nose has become an eyesore. But they can’t ask. And since they didn’t ask, I don’t tell.

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Because it would just be weird for me to suddenly exclaim, “Wondering about my nose? I’m being treated for sun damage, which, if untreated, could lead to skin cancer. So be sure to wear sunblock! Unless you want your nose to look like this someday. Or worse.”

I’ve never been vain and, at 59, I have enough perspective to know that going about my life with a (temporarily) ghastly nose is not a tragedy. A comedy, maybe. It is, at worst, an inconvenience.

As I go through daily life with an appalling nose, the only thing that’s truly surprised me are the folks who don’t notice at all. People who see me all the time, yet don’t appear to realize that, all of a sudden, I’ve got a whopping, big, hideously discolored splotch on my schnoz.

Their silence can be deafening. Are they too dazzled by my (considerable) inner beauty to see that my face is currently a disaster zone? So well adjusted and spiritual that it just doesn’t register on their radar? Or just too self-involved to care?

I was thinking — what if the shoe was on the other foot? How would I react if I saw the likes of me? I am, by nature, a well-mannered people-pleaser, so I probably wouldn’t say a thing. Sure, I’d notice. And I’d wonder. But I’d keep those nose thoughts under my hat.

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